a beginning of writing?

"Love is mute, Novalis says; only poetry makes it speak. Song means nothing: it is in this that you will understand at last what it is that I give you; as useless as the whip of yarn, the pebble held out to his mother by his child."

"To know that one does not write for the other, to know that these things I am going to write will never cause me to be loved by the one I love (the other), to know that writing compensates for nothing, sublimates nothing, that it is precisely there where you are not --this is the beginning of writing."

Roland Barthes, from Fragments: A Lover's Discourse

auto-erotics

Unuseful lists # 2

a to do list

• look out from the window until you count ten people passing your street
• learn the speeling of "procrastination"
• write a poem entitled "pair per tree"
• contemplate on whether it is possible at any moment to do nothing
  
• examine the petals of a caucus-like flower for at least ten minutes
• miss your street while walking back home, indeliberately
• make a shopping list of thing you would never want to buy
• make a "please no!" gift list, terminable
• make a list of possible responses to use in case you encounter relationship clichés such as "it's not you, it's me"